However, if I were to say something I don't know whether it would be to chastise you for ever listening to other people over all these decisions you've been taking or what I'd think really.
I am estranged from my daughter. She never rings me, certainly not for the last ten years. What can be worse than that you may ask - but actually there are things that could be worse. I could be hearing stories from those who do see her that she is going off the rails etc. That would be worse wouldn't it!?
Whatever you have done none of us can really understand it all I'm sure. Even those who have advised you to do what you have done cannot be blamed for their part in what you are feeling now, because it was always up to you to make this decision.
Everyone or nearly everyone tries to tell me that at some point my daughter will try to contact me and that all will be well. I feel like telling them to shove their well meaning opinions somewhere rude because how can they possibly know what will happen, especially as they have usually never experienced anything like ten years of parental exclusion, if any at all.
There must be some silver lining for you if your daughter is happier doing what she is doing, than you thought she was before or whatever made you think you should do this thing?
My father has always told me "Never worrry" and unfortunately I've never managed to heed his good advice or warning against a very bad disease called anxiety. It may be understandable for you to feel anxious about everything but until something disasterous really happens (and God forbid it ever will) you're situation shouldn't be described in that way I feel.
All the best, Graham