Since 2002, I've been in and out of court for custody of my 2 children from different fathers. They are nasty little men. A few examples: They've used a dirty little secret from my childhood against me. My mother sexually abused me, and I decided to be honest, and admit it in Family Court. Even though I was the one who was victimized, I was made to endure the wrath of Childrens' Services as an incompetent parent. I fully understand that these agencies need to investigate, but it caused such an emotional toll on me. Currently, my daughter is living with her father. He seized the trial week of her staying with him into blackmailing me for sole custody. If I don't agree with it, he'll be speaking in behalf of my other child's father when we head to court in less than two months. He states that he'll make such a damaging report about me, that I'll end up losing both children. The false allegations do not bother me as much as him calling my mother's place of work and revealing to them what she had done to me as a child. Based on the fact that she works with children, my mother will be fired. By the way, my mother is supporting me financially these days until I finish my schooling. I lose that source of income, and I will lose custody anyway. Also, my 9-year-old daughter has been manipulated, coached, and bribed by her father. Now, she fears being alone with me. She's afraid that I won't let her stay with her father. I had told him that I would agree to joint custody with overnight visits, but he wants full. He wants me to endure the time when he wanted joint, and I refused. I had refused because my daughter told me that she was in fear of him and his mother. My daughter lies to the both of us. She had told me terrible things about the pair of them, and I have gone to court to protect her from these people. But, she wants to live with Dad. She gets driven to school, talks on her $200 cell (a gift from Dad), and doesn't have to do chores there. I don't want to lose her, but I don't know how much more I can take with these bitter custody battles. All the stress has taken such a physical toll. I fear of having a nervous breakdown and losing everything. I'd appreciate any advice. I don't have anybody to talk to about this. My friends are childfree and can't be bothered, and my mother resents me for making her "sexual education" on public record.
