I would advise you not to take Lawmoe, or anyone else the wrong way - I don't think he has anything against you as such. I believe he has a great faith in the system, and the power of the system to get it right, plus maybe normal scepticism of anything he's being told.
Perhaps I accept people's stories too easily sometimes, although I do sometimes suggest individuals coming to this forum might have other motives (like sociology students trying to test a theory or measure public opionion on some scenario).
I don't doubt the voracity of your story, and I think we all accept you are suffering real pain. However, it follows because of the nature of a forum such as this, that we get only one side of any story.
I believe you mean this;- "My only concern is the happiness of my boys. I want them to be happy and I can tell you that they aren't, the only time I see or hear happiness in them is when I'm on the phone with them or they are with me."
My ex. who obstructed my contact by many, very subtle and not so subtle means (she cut contact visits in half, claiming my then three year old daughter hated seeing me, went off on holiday so that I arrived for a contact visit only to discover from a neighbour of hers that she was away, then there were the thousands of more subtle comments, like making my daughter think I'd chosen to eat an Easter egg someone had sent for her - luckily she was able to discover that wasn't true, then there was all the ridiculing, throwing presents I sent home with my daughter away, refusing or maybe my daughter refused to wear beautiful party dresses I had bought for her because of the way she was made to feel about anything connected with me) - sorry I've gone on a bit there!
Well, my point is that my ex. claimed she only ever did what our daughter wanted her to do, or what was in our daughters interests etc. etc.
You are saying you only have thoughts for your boys (I know we sometimes say things like that, so I think I understand you, and why you say it). However I challenge the view that parents should only be thinking of their children all the time. There is nothing wrong with you thinking of yourself too, I believe. It is a terrible thing not to have your boys with you, and yet I guess you know the courts aren't going to give you any consideration for your own personal interests.
I want to see that legal situation change, and decent people like yourself given more consideration by the courts, where there are no fears of safety for the children.
Maybe there is less sympathy on this forum than you might have expected because so many fathers get excluded completely or have to face a diminished role in their children's lives against their will.
I believe those of us who have become excluded and are now treated as lepers by our own children, manipulated to behave that way, would feel less angry, or maybe less extreme in our calls for wholesale changes to faimily law, if we knew that we couldn't be excluded unfairly, or could expect automatic support from the courts when we had done nothing wrong.
To return to your situation now, you will need all the help you can get and it must feel awful if your boys are as an unhappy as you say. You would be even more unhappy, or worried for their welfare, if they had been taken from you unnecessarily by the authorities, as has happened in a recent, high profile case in the UK. I mention that because it is one of the straws of comfort I used to cling to, my ex-wife might hate me, and make contact difficult, but my daughter was generally very happy and benefitting from the love and care of her mother.
It is obviously better that children are wanted by at least one of their parents, rather than abandoned by both of them - if that isn't too silly a point to make.
There must be strong arguments in your favour to be made infront of any judge or new judge you are able to bring your custody battle in front of in future.
Children do need their moms, and a court should see that, and it may favour you, although I'm sure it is difficult to overturn what has happened so far.
Good luck as I've said, and don't take the negative comments you might get here too negatively - that's my advice.
Graham