I guess it is just seeing him that brought out a lot of emotions in me. It has been hard raising my boy on my own and I have thought about all the things I would say to him if I ever saw him again. I have thought how I would put him in his place, let him know what a horrible person he is for leaving like that. I have this stupid idea in my head that once he sees Mason's face, he would maybe care. Mason looks just like his dad. I decided I will not try to contact him, It was a dumb thought, stupid idea. If he really cared, he would have said something to me instead of taking off like a bat out of hell. I always told my family and myself that if he wanted to ever see Mason, i would let him. I would nver let him take him out of my site until an established relationship, (don't trust the guy--good reason's not to) but that is Mason's dad. I feel guilty for Mason that he will nver experience his daddy. With men, is there a bond there like it is for me. When I knew I was haveing a son, I was overwhelmed with this attachment. Is it that way for dads? My father said it was for him.
