Exactly what I was thinking. If he really wanted to be a father to his son, then he would seek that out. I came to realize that it should not come from me asking him to be and pushing him to be there for his son. I mean, FOUR years has passed!!! He has never laid eyes on his boy. Amazing how just seeing him can make me feel like my world turned inside out and cause me aweful (absolutely dreadfull) dreams.
